New Year... New Blog

Gawd this blog is so unread.
My new years resolution= Reinvent My Blog

I can't actually believe that this year is nearly over.
It's been a whirlwind of fun times, sad times but most of all maturing time.
I can't believe how much you can change in the space of a year and how much those around you can change too. In some ways it is great, in others not.
However no regrets and keep going, because everything does happen for a reason.
I am just not sure what that reason is.

So much has actually happened to me, in a good way.
Let's focus on the positive.
The world won't keep spinning unless we stay happy and focused.

RYLA
This was actually a life changing week, those girls meant so much. The fact that we clicked and we had never met before. I felt like i had known them for years and years. Looking forward to some more fun times.

Scottish Parliament WE & Mod Studs Trip
Well yeah what is there to say.
It is truly an amazing place filled with amazing people, well most of them.
Just the SNP offices really.
I had great fun at my work experience and everyone was so kind :D

Then the Mod Studs Trip, how much mods studs was involved?
Not a lot but i did learn some things like...
That Sweet Chilli Sensations are really spicy.
And i need time to absorb my cooked breakfasts
What great banter with the Dream Team ( Jude, Lympy, Rebecks, Hannah Babes)
There were three in the bed and the little one said " I cannot be bothered going in the shower" so the scary one said " Get in the f*****ing shower !! "

Uni Trip
How awesome was this guys :D
Breadsticks and Pro Plus
Dancing with hoovers and brooms
And fit lads in thier pants
Nough said me thinks

These are the main moments of 2009 and hopefuly 2010 will be just as good, maybe even better?
Who knows....

Happy New Year & A Sucessful and Prosperous 2010
" For Auld Lang Syne, my dear, For Auld Lang Syne"

Blood

Off to give blood tomorrow with Susan :)
I think that it is so important to give blood,
Cause i mean touch wood i'll never need a transfusion but if i did i would like to know that there is blood there for me,
We take things like that for granted the whole time,
We just expect it to be there for us but most of us don't give up the time to give it,
So i am going to help change someones life by doing something ordinary that takes no time at all,
Give a little
And as Tesco says "Every Little Helps"
xxx

Love Is In The Air

I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me.

Infatuation has taken over me
And all i want to do is smile about it :D

Now everyone knows...
Well the close friends do anyway
So i don't know what my next move should be

All i know is that i love him <3
Cheesy but true :p

Then i saw his face
Now i'm a believer
Without a trace of doubt in my mind
I'm in love xx

Coming to a close :(

I can't believe this amazing summer is drawing to a close,
So much has happened to me,
And has changed me into i feel a better person!
I mean RYLA, Work Experience and my exam results boosted my self confidence so much,
And getting my job as a "till tart" (excellently put Michael) at Tesco
And it is not long until i turn 17 as well :D

But that means...

I have to go back to that place where everyone is fighting for attention
Where i have my amazing group of friends but the bitching still goes on
People think they are cool
When to me it is so obvious they are not
Committees are the most important thing in the world
And being on the enviromental committee is soooo not cool

I know i shouldn't worry how others see me
But i feel like everyone is constantly judging me
And in some ways i am judging them
But you know what
I am not gonna let these wannabes change me from who i am...
Cause i will stay true to myself and to me that is all that matters
And stick with the friends i have got
Cause i will always be....

The One and Only Lynsey Catherine Harper

RYLA '09

Rotary Youth Leadership Award Camp 2009
A week to remember with friends i will never forgot

Team #4
Ellen, Cheryl, Charlotte, Megan, Laura, Rachael, Sonia & Me
Our Councillor- Carla

I fitted in
Like i'd known them all my life
And we had been seperated for a short time
Everyone made me feel so welcome
And i could just be me in front of them
Basically make everyone laugh with my stupid ways and words
We did well and
Charlotte got the geekie
Ellen fell off the fence
Cheryl got mistaken for someone from Wales
Laura made us laugh just being her
Rachael pushed us up the hill and watched us in the pool
Megan laughed :P
Oh Sooooonnnniia
And me well people dropped bombshells and i fell on the assault course

Love you all and miss you like hell
ily xxx <3

Thee Parliament

I can't think of many words to sum up my week at the Scottish Parliament, as i don't think i could give it justice! But i will give you a little :D

Amazing
Great Fun
Eye-opening
A life experience
I will never forget it
Made great friends
Went to FMQ's
Saw Giant Snails for the first time
Laughed till my stomach hurt
And sent lots of e-mails

what else is there to say

Thanks to all of those who made it happen( i sound like i am doing an oscars speech)

But i loved it 100%, maybe even more

xx <3

6th Year

Well...
I think this year is going to be very good :)
Free periods kinda suck just now,
We are homeless wanderers
I swapped from Human Biology to Spanish
Still to inform the school though :P
Advanced English is good
We have primary school stylee tables
Hannah Dermody, Rebecca Crawford, Amy Henderson and Lynsey Harper rocking out English :)
And then there is modern studies
He is God and that book is the Bible, sure Becca :D
Spanish is good and i can actually say some wordies with my lisp
Business Management
Well enough said...
I hope it gets a bit harder cause so far i'm slightly bored :(

But yeah it's hopefully going to be very good
Along as people stop lying and shizz

ily xxxx

Summer '09

I cannot actually wait :D
The nexts free weeks are going to be hectic but fun so its all good,
Well i have my euphonium class in the Music Festival on Monday morning
And then i have to go back to the induction of 6th years

Then i go into 6th year on Tuesday :)
And then the wind band class in the afternoon.

Then back down to the Youth Commission on the 16th and the 17th
Meeting the Minister for Public Health and Sport in the parliament
Getting to see all the people again so it should be good fun
And doing the work as well

Then off for my work experience with Rob Gibson MSP
Going to the parliament for the week and then to the constituency office in Wick
So i'm really really excited

And then the RYLA camp for a week in Nethybridge
Which i am soo looking forward to
Can't wait to meet all the girls :D

xxxxx

Love

Define the word "love"

A mother's love for her child
She would do anything to protect them
Keep them out of harms way
Keep them close to her heart
Is that love?

The love between friends
That special bond that no one can break
No matter how hard they try
Like an elastic band
It always springs back
Most of the time
Is that love?

The love between husband and wife, partners, lovers
That is special and supposedly reserved for that one person
The one you want to spend the rest of you life with
The one you want to laugh with and be with
For better, For worse
For richer, For poorer
In sickness and In health
Till death part you
Is that love?

Love is different for everyone
To one it may evoke rage, sadness, joy
But for me the word is cold, sterile
I'm not sure what it means
I have 1000 feelings exploding in my brain
But the biggest thought at the forefront is:

What is love?

A blog for the Bessers

I love my girls, they actually mean the world to me
I now feel like i actually belong somewhere
I now feel safe and secure and i know that these girls wont leave me
Well i hope so
So this is a blog in tribute to my girls
Amy Sayer, Hannah Dermody, Elysia Young, Hephzi Marriot, Rebecca Crawford & Sarah King



Amy Joy Sayer

This lassie is a legend
She makes me laugh and smile
We have been through ups and downs
She has seen me at my lowest and my highest
She thought i was dead when i fell down the stairs
But i bounced back up, well not really
We rocked out in the summer house
And loved Mr Stewart and bought his presents together
Partners in crime forever and always
Band Buddies
And my actual Babe

ilyxxxx



Hannah Aishia Dermody

I am sorry if i spelt your middle name wrong
What laughs we have in history
Trying to imagine certain people dancing with a mop
To Amy Winehouse :O
And laughing at Neville Chamberlain songs
I make her laugh until she snorts
At her party playing on Rock Band
Jam, Porridge, Jam Jam, Porridge
Another one of my actual babes
ilyxxxx



Elysia Lorna Young

Football crazy and i hate sport
Yet we seemed to click
Two peas in a pod
Maths together
Supporting each other through the sad time and the glad times
Now we have done the exam we are still gonna be close
Cause we actually have such fun times together
Cause she makes me laugh a lot
And i hope that we stay friends forever and ever
Cause i never want to lose her
ilyxxxx



Hephzibah May Marriot

What a lassie
From second year modern studies
To now look how far we have gone together
We look after the drunkies together
And eat chocolte eclairs :D
She also puts pictures on my phone which gives me physocoligical symptons
I can't wait for more memories to come
Even though you are going to the college
We will still be friends forever and ever cause the bond we all have is fixed with superglue
Extra Strong :D

ilyxxx

Rebecca Louise Crawford

I don't think there is enough room to write all our memories
My cousin and friend
She went from a grub to a butterfly, in the words of Davie Nick Nack
Love her to pieces
She tries to convince me of lies
Like i danced with a teacher... and i tend to believe her
We have the shared love of two certain people...
One David Tennant and the other anonymous :D
Higher Modern Studies and Advanced English is gonna be immense
Sitting in Bus stops in Wick is so much fun
Reg in the morning would not have been the same without you
Love you babes :P forever and ever :)
In her company i seem to never stop laughing
And she seems to laugh at me a lot too
That's cause i'm silly :P
ilyxxx

Sarah Jane King

Legend!
History would have a sarah shaped void
Without her i would have missed out on a lot of experiences
Some would say a bad influence
I would say a great teacher
Although she does slever some shit :P
And take horrific photos which make me
Cry inside
Sarah i think we all know that there is only so much i can say online
But love you babes and i am going to confiscate your camera and break it
ilyxxxxxx

Happy Days

Life is going so good just now, it is unbelievable
Exams are almost over which means some serious partying sessions with the girls :D
I have like the whole of June and the first bit of July planned out, so you'll have to book in for appointments after that

Well... Bongo and Paulines Party on Friday night was immense
I don't think i have had such a good time in ages
Ended up staying at Rebecca's with no spare clothes and then i fell asleep and they took photos of me which was not funny although i did look really cute
Then i woke up like 4 hours after going to bed and that was sore, and i was thirsty
But i wouldn't want to have been dour and sat in a corner, the crack was great

Found out about my work experience
I'm going to the Scottish Parliament for a week
And then Rob Gibson's constituency office in Wick for 4 days
So i am really excited, i mean i only wanted to go to Wick but now i am going to Edinburgh which is even better

And lastly i am going to the Rotary Youth Leadership Camp in Nethybridge in the Summer holidays so at the moment it is all go go go :D
At least i am kept busy
Nothing worse than being bored to death

xxxx

Thoughts

I haven't written in ages :(
I was on the train back from Glasgow from on Saturday and i had a lot of time to think over everything. I was sitting next to a granny and grandaughter and it made me sad.
There are people out there who would love grandchildren and yet the women i call "grandmother" wants nothing at all to do with me.

Why did you have to go and fuck up the chance you had?
I loved you
I idolised you
I respected you
Bigger fool me i suppose
You can't reject my family and want me
Cause my loyalty lies with them obvs
Don't try and bribe me
I don't want anything to do with you

I feel most sorry for Dad
Why can't you be proud of him?
He has achieved so much more than you two ever have
Because he has a heart and you are stone cold

Don't tell me i'm niave or that i can't make my own decisions
Cause i have this time
I don't need you no more
To tell me i'm fat and that you love me more than my sisters
Cause i have nothing left for you nothing :(

More the fool you i say xxx

Worries

Comic Relief on Friday night was amazing with David Tennant, even though he broke my heart and kissed Davina but the message behind it makes me realise how lucky i am.

I worry about how my exams will go,
You wish you could sit exams...
I say i'm starving after 2 hours without food,
You don't know where your next meal is coming from...
I complain about tidying my room,
You support your whole family, you are their eyes and ears, they depend on you...
I'm scared of moths and spiders,
You live your life in fear...

Why did i get this life and you get yours?
Its a horrible reality of fate.
I really should appreciate my life more,
Because i have a house, food and a loving family
You have nothing and yet you keep on smiling...

And that is what makes me feel bad,
You have nothing to smile about,
And i have everything...
But sometimes even in my life its hard to smile :)

Random...

I'm rather bored today and i cannot be bothered with doing all the homework i'm supposed to be doing. I mean do teachers not realise i have other homework and a social life. Although tbh i dont really have one anymore. I went to drama on Friday, a gym induction yesterday and i dont know when i'll leave the house today. I'm living the life of a recluse :P

I have 218 books in my room cause i just counted them...
Thought you might like to know :)
If you havent guessed already
I love reading.
Rather geeky i know but there is nothing like a good book.
No one else in my family really reads, well my dad does at work.

Me and my dad are very similar.
We are both impaitent and have rather wild tempers.
He likes walking slightly more than i do.
We even look like each other slightly.
Apart from he has no hair.

I feel really sorry for Jade Goody.
I mean i never really liked her but i would never wish this upon anyone.
She is getting married today and peoples generosity is immense.
Mohammed Al Fied gave her a wedding dress free!

I met him once actually in the Fall of Shins at Harrods there.
I got free ice cream and it was good.
I can't remember what he looks like.
We were singing in the choir haha
Fun times!
We went to La Mirage on the way home.

La Mirage is the best chip shop in the world!
It's in Helmsdale :)
And there used to be a cool wifey there
She died tho...

And on that note this blog is over...

Why??

Today blogging is essential. I have had a shit day. Its quite high up on the shit scale to be honest.

Am i too nice?? Depends on your opinion but i'm starting to think i am just a walk over. I don't like being a walk over but i don't like being horrible to people either. Thats my problem. I take people at face value and don't listen to what people say about them. Then today the one person who i wouldn't expect to say something horrible to me did. She was telling me what someone else said about my appearance which is rich coming from her. As if i wasn't self concious enough and know this adds to my pressure to look "beautiful". I don't understand. Did she go out of her way to hurt me? Is she telling the truth?? I'll find out.

And then i got my history and my drama marks back and i don't know what i can do to get them better because i need to do better in my exams to improve from my ABBBCF to at least AAAA. It's not going to happen i don't think anyway.

Times like these i feel like giving up and then i laugh at myself because i know i'm just weak...

Holding it together...

Its hard to be the one that trys to be nice to everyone.
And other people don't help sometimes.
I mean i can't speak to everyone at the same time.
I try and spread myself around and speak to everyone.
So why do you always have to have my attention?

I like you all and just because i speak to someone else doesn't mean i like them more.
I sometimes like to socialise with other people too and maybe you should try it sometime.
Don't pretend that you are something that your not.
I can see the real you.
Why pretend?

I want my friends to be honest with me.
I am honest with you.
Don't put on a front.
I want people to laugh with, to cry with, to be me with.
So don't try to be cool in front of me cause it isn't going to work
Just be you...

Can you do that?

The most surreal dream in the world!

I had this dream a few nights ago and im copying Robert by posting it but i thought it was so surreal and random that it had to be done.

I'm at Hannah's house and we are having a wild rave. I'm dancing and then Elysia grabs my arm and asks me if i want to go outisde for fresh air.

I follow her outside and we are in the high school car park and she hands me a packet of cocaine. I then snort it! [This is not natural behaviour for me btw] I then drop it and a police car comes round the corner. The police man comes out of the car and grabs me by the throat and asks me if i am 12 and i say no! He then asks what the white powder round my nose is and i say sherbert.

He then arrests me and takes me to Hannah's house and my accordian is outside in the rain and then i cry and fall on my bum....

If you can interpret this please let me know..... :P

Le Crunch de Credit

You would think the world was going to end.

People are going crazy about money but if they stopped panicking for 2 minutes they might realise we are quite lucky.

This isnt the worst think that Britain has been through. After ww2 there was huge economic disaster and rationing was still on. What would people do if they went back to rationing? I know they would curl up in a corner and die. British people tend to overreact to the hilt.

There are so many bad things happening in the world and we are worried about our bank balance. Others are worried about where their next meal is coming from even in this country and it is them we should be focussing on. We are going to get through it and it isn't a matter of life or death.

We should focus on the here and now. Others are going to disagree with my stance but i don't care. I think we should be happy with our lot and work for tomorrow when things are going to be better.

Think about those who have nothing at all, not even a bank account to worry about. Then we can realise how lucky we are...

Fitting In

I've always found it harder than anyone else to make friends. Since the beginning. My sister can walk up to anyone and hold a conversation. Even though i may come across as confident and loud... i'm quite shy to start with.

So why is this important? Because i now feel like i finally have the best friends in the world and maybe these ones will hold onto the end unlike the others.

Sometimes i used to feel that maybe it was me that was the problem. Maybe it was my fault and i pushed people away. So i changed and became the fake Lynsey and it didn't make any difference. I always picked up the kind of people who would use me and then leave me because i aimed for the wrong kind of people.

And then i found my friends who i could be me in front of. And they weren't going to judge me for who i was. I could be crazy and do stupid things and they wouldn't think i was a freak.

We laugh about the silliest most immature friends. We throw rainbow drops at each other and laugh. But most importantly i could trust them with anything. I can be me without the worries.

Now i feel i fit in. And i'm sure they aren't gonna run out on me...

OMG I need to blog!

I haven't actually blogged in an age. This year has been so busy already and we are only at the end of January. My prelims are almost over apart from French and Drama. I am so relieved that they are over. I almost had a nervous breakdown over Maths on Sunday but it went okay in the end i suppose. Just need to get the results back. All i seem to take about on here is exams but they have taken over a large part of my life at the moment.
I don't really have a social life at the moment, i still go to Drama at the Mill because that is my second home and the banter is amazing. Might blog about them soon actually :) Also go to Wind Band because i love playing my euph at any oppurtunity. However the rest of my time is taken up with school, homework and revision. I never thought this year would be that hard but it has proved me wrong. I just need to keep going for a bit longer and then i can party and relax and have fun and i'll tell you one thing....

The drinks are on me :) :) :) or maybe Dad :P

Looking Back

What a year! That's all i can say. 2008 was immense and i'm hoping that 2009 is going to be the same!

Music School, CentreParcs, Edinburgh Drama Trip, Mary Poppins, France and Exam Results...
but...
Exams =( Highers and the usual

But to be honest looking back i have changed so much and so have the people around me, I made new friendships and extended old ones.There have been good times and bad. But lots of memories and that is what is important to me. Lots of people to remember. To look back at the photos and think about the people i met and spent part of my life with. To tell the grandchildren about( cheesy i know).

But thanks for all the good times and i hope that 2009 will prove just as good as 2008 =)

Blog done ( is that good enough for you Callum??)