Where is the Love?

This is a question i ask myself daily. Where is the love? When i take a look at the world and see all the bad things that are happening i find it hard to believe there is such a thing as love. People being stabbed on the streets, wars being fought, evil dictators hurting innocent people. Over the past week so many bad things have happened there is no room in the press for good news. The headlines feature Russian plane crash kills 88, Chinese Bus crash kills dozens, travel operators going into liquidation and so on and so forth.

There is so much gloom and doom that one could curl up in a ball and fall into a eternal slumber. That's where i come in and try and spread a smile or a laugh. Those close to me know that this comes quite naturally to me, seeing as people laugh at my actions i make everyday, accidently. If you love to recieve compliments give one, it was the same sort of feel good factor involved. Just smiling at someone even if you don't know them can make someones day.

I'm not going to change the world by smiling and making people laugh. But even if it lifts someone out the darkness for a second or two, it makes me feel good.

So smile, laugh and love and we can all make a small bit of difference in someones life :D

I'm a snob!

Yes i am a snob... i went to the opera!

I bet many of you are thinking that opera is boring, well that's what i thought before today. My opinion has changed immensely. Got invited to a higher music workshop with Scottish Opera cause i have cool contacts and it was so much good fun. The understudies of the characters in the Merry Widow ran it and they were so talented and gave very good advice.

Then Sarah and I went to watch the performance tonight and i wasn't going to go but i got a free ticket. And i'm a sucker for a freebie.

It was brilliant tbh and more people should broaden their horizons and try something new....

Thank you......

It was something that was said to me this morning at the meeting at Thurso Salvation Army which made me realise how much i appreciate this girl. I felt i needed to write it down and for her to know how much i value her as a friend. She has been my rock although she probably doesn't know it.

I find it hard to express emotion which some people may find hard to understand seeing as i always talk non stop! However when it comes to serious and personal matters i tend to shy away and bottle it all up. So writing this is hard for me but she is so special i need to get it out in the open.

This girl is of course the one and only Amy Sayer! It all started in 2nd year English when she arrived in our class. The teacher asked who would like to take Amy to lunch and i flung my arm in the air to make sure i got to take her. However and i still regret it now i left her on her own. The reason behind this was my best friend at the time told me that i wasn't allowed to be friends with her because she went to the Salvation Army, i didn't want to lose this friend but then i didn't want to be horrible to Amy. Although this girl turned out to be horrible anyway and only wanted to be friends with me because she had no one else.

I then went through a patch where i drifted from group to group, not knowing who to tag along with. Everyone had their own best friend and i longed for one too but couldn't seem to find this person. However by chance i happened to settle in the group of people who Amy was friends with and we became closer again. The group is mostly the same now apart from some people coming and going. I found it amazing that she could have forgiven me for being so nasty to her when she had no one else. But when i was at my lowest and had no one else. She was there for me.

She included me in everything that was going on at the army and i went to all their social evenings and what like. Then she invited me to Music School 2007 which was strange for me as i was one of the only ones who didn't go to the salvation army. Then she invited me back again this year even though i still did not attend the army.

After Music School 2008 she helped me when i realised that the right move for me was to start attending the Salvation Army on a Sunday and when i was worried what others would think she was there to support me.

We've shared many happy times and some sad. We've had laughs and tears. We've shared food and faith. I just want Amy to know what a difference she has made in my life without realising.

Without you Amy, i would be no further on in my faith than i was three years ago when you came into my life. Imagine if you never came to Thurso..... you must have been sent to look after me :)