Thoughts

I haven't written in ages :(
I was on the train back from Glasgow from on Saturday and i had a lot of time to think over everything. I was sitting next to a granny and grandaughter and it made me sad.
There are people out there who would love grandchildren and yet the women i call "grandmother" wants nothing at all to do with me.

Why did you have to go and fuck up the chance you had?
I loved you
I idolised you
I respected you
Bigger fool me i suppose
You can't reject my family and want me
Cause my loyalty lies with them obvs
Don't try and bribe me
I don't want anything to do with you

I feel most sorry for Dad
Why can't you be proud of him?
He has achieved so much more than you two ever have
Because he has a heart and you are stone cold

Don't tell me i'm niave or that i can't make my own decisions
Cause i have this time
I don't need you no more
To tell me i'm fat and that you love me more than my sisters
Cause i have nothing left for you nothing :(

More the fool you i say xxx